I do not need my desires.

Someone said yesterday, actually at my Pastor's installation ceremony, that to find your balance your must first find your center. That resonated in my heart, and in my head, and I cannot stop thinking about it. It made me want to examine where I am out of balance in my life, and where is my center. The pastors were talking about being balanced in regards to creativity and gloom, but this is true in so many places in life. I realized I am out of balance with care for myself, and others, in addition to my needs over desires. So where is my center for these two things? Can I care for others while caring for myself, like a two-in-one? Are my desires really needs or are my needs my desires. Emotionally I am feeling fairly well balanced, which for me a BIG surprise, so since that is okay and I have found my center that way, I can now explore the scale in other areas. BUT HOW? How to I begin a quest of finding my center, a place that creates fluidity and stability, among desires and needs, among caring, service to others, and then to myself? I think, I need to break this all down.
My needs, my needs are basic, for is that what the word truly means? I have a need of shelter, a need of healthy food and clean water, I have a need of clothes ( enough for each day, and no more), I have a need to have quite, a need for company and love. I have a need for comfort, of my spirit and heart, I have need to be able to care for my daughter, and I have need to grow my marriage. These are only a few needs. So as I wrote this I started to think, do my desires out weight my needs? Yes, of course. My desire to have a new Prius, my desire to get a new mattress, my desire to redo our bedroom, my desire to by an all new wardrobe, etc and so forth. But I realize that my desires have NOTHING to do with furthering my love of life, they are THINGS! I really do not need any of my desires. Some may say that dreams fall into the category of desires, but I believe the opposite.I believe that my dreams create a need, a goal to better my life with a lot of hard work.
Now, caring for myself, in balance with caring for others, this is one I must meditate on, because finding a center of this is very hard for me. I tend to go to extremes for both, and although since I have had Delilah, I have become better about ask for time for myself, I tend to worry more about everyone else before myself. I realize I do this because it makes my heart happy to provide a sense of happiness, love, support, warmth for others, and when it is my time to turn that back on myself, I get lost. Strange how it is so easy to do this for someone else, but become so clueless when it is time to bring it back round home; so to speak. I am going to pray on this. Can you pray with me? Can you also see what is out of balance in your life that is in need of a center, because I believe if I have other people who can examine some of the same issues at the same time, it helps me reflect on myself...perhaps you can be my light?