Tired of Tires

I sit here at the tire shop, thinking a lot about what has happened in my life lately. All the reasons I have to be grateful for, all the times I have had the choice whether to be sad and mope, but instead I have chosen to take life as it comes and find a blessing in it. I was feeling sorry for myself about 15 minutes ago because I just dropped $400 on tires. That is a lot of dough when you also have to get the car smogged and get its regular check. I was stressing that we would be really tight, but safety is not a sacrifice I was willing to make. And then it hit me, a lady came blustering through the door, demanding her car should be finished in x amount of time, and that she needs a discount and that the tires are all a rip off, and I got it.She is my lesson. I realized I am blessed to be able to put tires on a car, I am blessed to have a car, and a safe one at that. I am blessed that I get an hour of relative quite to sit and think about all of this. I am blessed that my husband was not just willing, but happy to stay with our daugter as trekked off to care for our vehicle. I sometimes need to put things in persepctive. I need to realize that I would not only considered fortunate in most of the world, but wealthy, I have a roof over my head, with nice things inside, i have a full fridge and pantry, and CLEAN RUNNING water, I have electricy, two cars and health insurance. AND I have God. I begin to doubt Him sometimes, thinking he is not doing enough for me, and my family, that if he really loved us he would help us find a way to make more money, or pay off bills, or by that new car we so want. He does help us all the time, every time we have NEEDED something God has come through. We have never gone with still needing, all of our needs have always been met, and then some. I feel like a huge struggle is gluteny. Not just on a large national level, but on a very personal level. So in the big picture, yes fourhundered dollars is a lot of money, but at least I have it!
Delilah is AMAZING! She is keeping me straight this week. Her smile has is making my heart get to the point of happiness I feel like it could burst. Last night we were so lucky to spend the evening at my Parents home, with my Grandparents as well. Delilah and I did not get home until well after midnight, so, me being me, I asked Dan if she could maybe just crawl in bed with us for the night? Of course he said yes, so she snuggled in and then decided it was time to pull out all of the cute stops! She began talking and cooing, and yelling and squealing, and Rolling back and fourth, and as hard as Daniel and I tired, we could not ignore her to let her settle in to sleep, it was a moment in time that needed to be seized. So the three of played and laughted until it was clear it was time to settle to sleep. I let go last night, and I did not worry about breaking a schedule, about getting hyper when it was time to be quite. AND I LOVED IT! I love her and I love my husband.