Social Butterfly

Today was our friend, Rob's birthday. He is the father of a little 11 month old named Kiera. She is wonderful, and so is he, in fact so is his wife. In the recent months we all have become quite good friends. It is so nice to be surrounded by parents whom adore and love their children! He reminds me so much of Daniel, so into his daughter, wrapped around her little finger. Daniel and Rob are both quite sensitive and doting. I feel blessed to have them in our lives. Anyway, we went to Rob and Jess' new home for a fantastic party. Delilah seems to really enjoy herself at these kinds of events, she is passed from person to person and does incredibly well, not crying or fussing at all. She is a little social butterfly. I guess she gets that one from me.

I have been feeling so full filled lately in regards to friendships. I feel like since Delilah has arrived I have been branching out more, meeting new friends and growing once stagnant relationships. Having so many wonderful people in our lives has been great. I feel like no matter what issue may arise I have at least one person to turn to depending on what it may be. I had dear friend from elementary school contact me this last month, we had not spoken in nearly 12 years, she too is married and has a little 4 month old. It was like we picked up where we left off. And so many new friends from parenting groups, or networking. And my good old die hard relationships, which seem to always be there when I need them, you know who you are! I feel so blessed that I can raise my child with so many awesome people around her. And me too! Friendships have been such a wonderful filling in my life. I feel like many are family, an extension, and from many friendships I am "gaining" new families. Friend's parents and siblings soon feel as if they are mine own, and seems to be reciprocal. That means so much.

Things have really changed for me in the last few years. Yes externally, I am married, have a baby, have had a serious career. However I mean more internally. I never would have imagined my life could be so comfortable, so full of wonderful things. I was thinking today that it is hard for me to find a "bad part" of my life. Daniel and I always have a "check in" everyday, question being " what was the best part of your day," and "what was the worst part of your day, and how could you have changed that?". I have a hard time finding a "worst part of my day". Often it is something silly like I am a dork and tipped over the laundry detergent ( which let me tell you is a pain in the behind to clean up...funny how something that is meant to clean is a pain to clean..? another blog perhaps?). So if that is the worst part of my day then I do not have much to complain about. And really that is about as bad as my life gets. Granted I have my days where I feel like the world should leave me the heck alone. That I want to sit on the pity pot and live in sorrow, but it is only a day, at most and it really is hormonal. I have a hard time with relationships with family sometimes, purely because I get frustrated watching the ones I love make things more complicated for themselves, and it irks me. And granted Dan and I have our biffs every now and again, but in the big scheme of things my life is good, really good. I feel like a totally different person that I was emotionally 5 years ago. That my appreciation for things is greater and my tolerance is much more. I love myself, which in turn allows me to love others. What a concept. Now...I still have to work on this body image thing...what is up with Mrs. Doughboy...JUST KIDDING! Anyway, I am glad I can feel the way I feel because I believe in my heart that it will bless Delilah allowing her to grow up feeling secure.

So, Delilah taught me today that being open and relaxed brings so many blessings that will forever be in our lives. That allowing myself to let go and let God, fills my soul and my family's soul with grace, love and peace.