I am blessed. I already knew I was blessed before tonight, but tonight reinforced it. My husband is a great Dad, also a great husband. The best part is, Delilah adores him. At times this is hard for me, he can come home after a long day, scoop up the babe that has been crying for a couple of hours and some how, all of a sudden, she is okay. She stops crying, settles into her Daddy, and even cracks a few smiles. When I try EVERYTHING to make that happen, all she needs is him. That is good.
As we lay in bed this evening, Delilah in the middle, singing songs to her, watching her coo and smile, giggle and curl into a ball with excitement, I realized how unique our family is. Our family maybe small but it has a big heart. I love spending time together, and it seems as though that is not all too common. As I watch some friends travel the same life roads as I, I see my life taking such a different path than those around me. A path a little less bumpy, a little less scary, and I see how easy the choice is for them to choose another path, and then I get it. I get that I have faith, love and peace in my life which guides me. That God is there, showing me that my rough ride was a couple years ago, now my choice is that of love and trust. And I like that. I like that I am taking Delilah with me down this road rather than one of instability. I have also learned that if you put something out to the universe, that it does indeed come back. I am getting to be so blessed by so many good friendships, it makes my heart so happy. I felt like for so long I was giving and giving of my heart and soul, draining myself, so there was little left for me. And now, all of that love and happiness is coming back 10 fold, with new friendships with people who offer just as much as I have to give. That is a true gift.
My blessing for the day
was the outdoors and good family and friends. Delilah taught me that today it is okay to have a preference for one person over another depending on where you are in your life. That sometimes someone has for you what the other does not.
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2 comments:
The honesty in this blog is astounding. I feel that way all the time, too. Just truly and deeply blessed- yet saddened to watch others struggle knowing they don't have to. And wondering where old relationships fall. So know this my sister that you are not alone in these worries, and you are right it IS ok to give each person their chapter in your life without them being the leading role.
Can't wait to see you next week!
Hugs!
Heidi ... you have great wisdom and a great heart ... sometimes I have to remind myself that you're in your early 20s! Thanks for being so transparent. Your thoughts makes me reflect on my own life.
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