My Life with Delilah

So my sweet Delilah is turning 16 weeks this Friday and I am having a hard time remembering what my life was all about before her. I find that my days seems to be so filled with joy and excitement that I cannot imagine it any other way. Delilah is now finally settled into a "routine" of her choosing and it is fantastic. She is approaching the time in her little life where she is almost completely self entertaining, but still needs a mom very much. It is so much fun to see her play with her toys, by herself, but get so excited with she suddenly spots her Mommy watching her! And now as we go out, she is looking around and taking in the world in such a pure, non-judgmental way, that I envy her sometimes. The trees are something to be aw-struck by, and I think, when was the last time I really just let the trees capture my whole attention?

She has been teaching me so many things I had never thought I needed to learn before now. Like the gift of "letting go" and enjoying what is happening right now, in this moment. Her sweet smile has been teaching me to smile more, and realize that so often I walk around with an expression of concern rather than joy, when in my world there is no need for anything but happiness. Delilah has been teaching me the enjoyment of true sleep. She is a fantastic sleeper, really we get about 6-8 hours, but to really appreciate sleep is wonderful. And the best, is family.

My husband has a love for our daughter so light and genuine that I find it hard to express with words what I feel when I watch the two of them together. And the likewise love she has for him is so sweet. When he comes home every night and scoops her up, her face lights up with a HUGE smile, a smile that is so flirtatious and sweet. He has the gift of calming her when she cries with his kiss, and I believe that is because she know there are no conditions on his love for her, and never will be. I love to watch the two of them play, to giggle and coo, even happens as he changes her diapers! I am so blessed to have married him, to have him love me so much, and to feel that. My little family is love.

I have realized since having my little girl arrive in this world, how much family means. To me, to her and us to them. I am blessed beyond many to have such a large and happy family. I have the greatness of having three families, my Husband's family whom I adore, and they are all so kind and thoughtful. I am grateful that Delilah spends time every week with her "Grandma Pinchey" and "Papa Boon". That the love and tenderness Delilah receives while with them will forever help shape that little soul and heart into being a strong kind person. I am grateful that they desire to be with their grandchild, and express that openly. I am grateful for my father and "smom", Grandma and Grandpa. The excitement I see when they just watch her, stare at that little sweet face listening to her, waiting for her cuteness to get cuter. I feel blessed that they will offer Delilah a view of personal growth many do not ever enlist in their own lives. That they can be role models for her. And my Mother, Gamma, Delilah will learn the delicate way of looking at the artistic side of the world, and will not go with out kisses from her Gamma. She will teach her to pay attention to detail, finding beauty in all of natures little things. And my siblings, how may aunties and uncles she has. The goofy, and strong Uncle Matthew, who is so head over heels in love with Delilah it makes my heart melt. And Auntie Tascha and Uncle Joe, I know they will encourage the gift of knowledge and "out of the box" thinking. Auntie Kirsten and Uncle Dustin will be the game players with little Delilah, the cookie givers and the park lovers, and she will always know she is loved by them. And last but not least Auntie Carrie and Uncle Gonzalo. I know they will give my daughter the love to explore the world, to try new things and never be afraid to take off and have an adventure!

And last the gift of her great grandparents, Papa and Grandma North. Not many children are able to have great grandparents around. And right now I think she is more of a gift to them than they are to her, yet. As I watch them watch her, I find my heart happy and sad at the same time. I know that they may not be long for this world, and yet their life experiences are so many that the rich relationship they can provide for Delilah is endless. And I think that the love that comes so late in life is a long of absolute purity and generosity. And that Delilah will never forget.

I think everyday day how much my life means, not just to me, but to another human being. I have the best life I could ever ask for. My Husband and I are so in love and my husband is even more in love with our Daughter, which makes me fall more for him, how silly! And I love the little life that came from me more than words can express, she is the best thing my God could ever give me, she is my blessing every day.